As Christmas ended and January came around, I started my final semester of my undergraduate degree. Throughout my degree I don’t think I prepared myself for how this would begin to effect me.
Not only has my deadlines increased, with a dissertation and 2 modules left to complete leaving me with almost 16,000 words to be written by April. But a more important deadline is shadowing its way towards me, the end of my degree. I’ve been in some form of education for the last 15 years, it’s been a part of my life I’m familiar with, and as someone with a history of anxiety and being horrible with change, that’s a part of my life that is about too and I’m scared.
The questions are beginning to be asked, “what are you going to do when you graduate?”. With other students already securing internships and graduate roles, knowing full well what their life will behold for them, I almost feel panicked. I have no idea what I’m about to do. During university I’ve done the most incredible things from starting a businesses to winning awards, yet I ask myself, do I actually know what I’m going to do?
As the weeks draw nearer to the day I graduate I’ve felt overwhelmed and unsure, a reality for so many students that isn’t talked about. I’ve felt like if I go into a career not using my degree will I have wasted 3 years? Or if I go into another career what will people think of me? Am I wasting my degree? What is a successful career? If I don’t make £18,000+ in my first grad year is that unsuccessful?
ITS GOING TO BE OKAY
“We know what we are, but know not what we may be.”
Going into the big wide world is scary. Judgement may come that I’m not ready yet to apply for a grad job, as I have no idea what I want to go into. But what I have learnt is that you have to follow what you enjoy. That taking everything I’ve learnt in 3 years is valuable and change can come in any career role. Hey, even my Mum changed career roles at the age of 45 into a completely different sector!
Stop worrying about what other people will think about what you do after you graduate. THIS is your life. This is your time. If you find your perfect job within months of leaving, go you! But it takes years for you to find it, go you too!
Stop worrying. You are doing enough, you will be okay, the world will amazed at whatever you do. Breathe. We all do things at different times.
You can do this.